Making Room

For Tim

Dining Room Folding Dining Table For Small Spaces With Unpolished pertaining to Dining Table Small Kitchen

Steeped as I was in the fiction
of knights and castles and maidens
idly brushing their hair in some tower
I was unprepared
when you arrived at my door.

Where’s your armor? I said.
What, no steed?
Jeans are more my style, you said.
And you can’t beat a Chevy Nova.

Not sure how I felt
about this accidental prince
leaning on my doorbell, I invited you in.
Don’t rearrange anything, I said.
And keep your coat on.

Nice tree, you said, nodding
at the Ansel Adams. How about
some music?
Okay, I said
but I choose the album.

It’s hard to sweep a girl off her feet
when she’s wearing lead boots.
Undeterred, you didn’t mind
my cautious steps, even as you
performed your own
unconventional dance.
It’s fun, you said. Just give it a go.
I’m fine right here, I said.

It took time to make room
for you in the vigilant
house of myself.
Until one day Love laid
another cup and plate
on my precise table for one
and I knew
I was done for.

Pull up a chair,
I said.
Don’t mind if I do,
you said.

July 9, 2018 (30th)

Let It Be: 2014

Snowy tree-lined road at sunrise.

Call them resolutions, aspirations, intentions, whatever. I pray that a year from now these will have been true of me in 2014:

1.  She lived in and led from the roominess of God.

“The Good Shepherd leads his sheep out of the tight and tiny boxes in which we lock ourselves into his spacious pastures.”
~ Timothy Radcliff

“All that is true, by whomsoever it has been said, has its origin in the Spirit.”
~ Thomas Aquinas

2. She wore her own face.

“Now I become myself.
It’s taken time, many years and places.
I have been dissolved and shaken,
Worn other people’s faces…”
~ May Sarton, “Now I Become Myself”

“The leaders of the future will be those who dare to claim their irrelevance in the contemporary world as a divine vocation… and to stand in this world with nothing to offer but their own vulnerable selves.”
~ Henri J. M. Nouwen

3. She was mindful of each moment.

“We spend a long time wishing we were elsewhere and otherwise.”
~ Robert Farrar Capon

“The present moment, like the spotted owl or the sea turtle, has become an endangered species. Yet more and more I find that dwelling in the present moment, in the face of everything that would call us out of it, is our highest spiritual discipline.”
~ Philip Simmons

4. She practiced stillness.

“I learned…that inspiration…comes into us slowly and quietly and all the time, though we must regularly and every day give it a little chance to start flowing, prime it with a little solitude and idleness…The imagination needs moodling—long, inefficient happy idling, dawdling and puttering.
~ Brenda Ueland

5. She operated more often from love than from fear.

“Our fear is in the service of all the little ways we have learned to protect our false self. But love is really who we are. We’ll never see the love we really are, our foundation, if we keep living out of our false self of self-protection and overreaction. We must remember that ‘perfect love casts out all fear’ (1 John 4:18).”
~ Richard Rohr

6. She chose joy.

It was what I was born for —
to look, to listen,

to lose myself
inside this soft world —
to instruct myself
over and over

in joy,
and acclamation…
~ Mary Oliver 

7.  She finished that dag-nabbity book!

“A writer is someone for whom writing is more difficult than it is for other people.”
~ Thomas Mann

Good and gracious God, let it be.

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